An un-mailed letter to a hero among us.
I am writing to you this cold day in March to thank you for your service. I am overwhelmed when I hear your story–but more than that, I am grateful. I do not know your suffering. I cannot begin to imagine what you and Claudia and your family are all struggling with.
My initial reaction is to beg you to keep fighting–but you have fought the fight–on the battlefield and back here on the home front you have fought so hard and so bravely. I have not met you, but I have met countless of your brothers and sisters, other soldiers who also served in Iraq, still others who fought in Vietnam, Korea, WWII and Afghanistan, some who never deployed–but still suffer their own battle scars. Yours and theirs are different stories, but also they are the same.
Each time I meet a veteran, I hope to honor their individual battle scars, those earned from their time in service and those earned from the home front battle-the war waged by returning veterans every day, among strangers, with family members and within themselves.
But your story of courage, your words and actions honor other soldiers and sailors, the fallen and the suffering who cannot speak, cannot reach out and cry out to others. They are remembered, because of your bravery–in 2001 and today, last month and last week.
I appreciate your constant bravery and your unwillingness to remain quiet about the hard realizations that you have come to and more so about the devastating challenges that you and Claudia and those closest to you have dealt with since that fateful day.
I have read your letter. I have heard you cry out against the war crimes committed by (y)our leaders who led you and countless others (and all of us) into a war based upon lies. I have watched you in video and media clippings where you speak out and up for us all to hear. We are listening.
Those of us who stood in the streets and protested the dangerous decision our so-called leaders made to send our brothers and sisters into a country, without cause, to fight a war, without cause, we hear you.
Those of us who lit candles and prayed while cars passed us by and called us Anti-American, unpatriotic, terrorists and heathens, we are listening to your story–we are grateful for your service–we are only sorry no one listened to us when we hoped to save you from our country’s unwise, unjust and immoral tirades.
I am angry too. I am angry for you and for your family. The thousands of American and allied forces who have lost so much. The Iraqi people. Our nation weeps for your losses, our collective soul is shambles.
The time that is left for you on this Planet, I pray you have the peace that you deserve. I pray you know that those of us who respected your decision to serve this country, were grateful then as we remain grateful now.
The tone however is different. When we fought against the invasion, we meant to keep you from harm’s way; we failed you.
We could scream I told you so to Bush, Cheney and the criminals who led you there. We do that, too. But also, and importantly we owe you a debt of gratitude.
Tomas, thank you for putting words to paper and then to media in a way that I could never do. You and all of the men and women who gave their lives –those who do not come home, and all of the wounded warriors who come home, forever changed–you are the anti-war movement’s strongest tool, the veteran’s greatest advocate.
We will not forget you or your bravery. I try to fight for your brothers and sisters, by advising those who served–and their dependents about what the VA should be doing, is doing and what benefits they may be able to apply for–and from the comfort of my office, it all seems so trivial.
Your battle with the VA is unacceptable, because for all of the well-meaning folks within the current Administration fighting to end homelessness among veterans, and those working to improve services for those who have served, the treatment for countless veterans at the VA–remains deplorable.
I am sorry that the VA did not provide you comfort, benefits or medical treatment worthy of you and your sacrifice.
What I do is symbolic in that it involves taking on the VA or whatever agency is at times wronging my veteran clients or assisting veterans with whatever issue is aggravating the scars carried among my veteran client(s) and their families. I try at times to push forward to the other side of hope, with the idea that something(s), sometime(s) can be better for one veteran, one family.
The sacrifice you made is all too real. Thank you and God bless you, Claudia and your family and loved ones.
An Advocate for Veterans
(For those who may not know of Tomas’s bravery, check out these links on Democracy Now! A Message to George W. Bush and Dick Cheney From a Dying Veteran.
Exclusive: Dying Iraq War Veteran Tomas Young Explains Decision to End His Life,
WATCH: Dying Iraq War Veteran Tomas Young on Bush, Missing WMDs, Failed Medical Care )
P.S. I realize that even writing this letter is selfish on my part. I wrote it to help me come to terms with what your letter, your advocacy, your service and your life have all meant to me, a person whom you have never meant. I am grateful to have known your story, Tomas, thank you.